Find a Way or Fade Away
13 / 13 eras outlined
Fictionalized memoir
2025-08-25
Themes: Early loss, instability, grieving family bonds
Birth in North Vale, unstable marriage, early instability, and the shattering grief of losing baby sister Lark.
Themes: Displacement, forced religious identity, tension with authority
Mara remarries to Victor and converts to Orthodox Judaism. Young Asher experiences religious discipline and educational alienation in Silver Glen.
Themes: Freedom, temporary joy, false refuge
Divorce from Victor. Asher moves to California with Caleb and Samuel, discovers joy and belonging for the first time before an abrupt, painful return to Colorado.
Themes: Neurodivergence, misfit identity, advocacy
Struggles with motor skills, reading, attention span. School transitions. Lifesaving connection with Mrs. Snook in special ed at Sandburg Elementary.
Themes: Disruption, new environments, identity clash
Family moves to Red Rock. Asher rebels against conformity. Increasing self-awareness of identity as outsider.
Themes: Bouncing, instability, experimentation
Frequent moves between Red Rock and Silver Glen. Starts to reject imposed labels and find self-created ones.
Themes: Trauma, loss, romantic confusion
First rehab at 19; traumatized and assaulted. Relationship with Raina leads to fathering two children who are later revealed not to be biologically his.
Themes: Spiritual turning point, mourning, internal rebirth
April 17, 2004: Asher gets clean. Builds a new life in Miner’s Rest. Death of beloved brother Ezra on Christmas Eve, 2005.
Themes: Parenthood, betrayal, coping with reality
Marries Celeste, has Willow and Reed. Relationship breaks under pressure.
Themes: Multiple lives, emotional collapse
Relationship with Ivy and son Noah. Infidelity with Skye. Dual identities begin to spiral.
Themes: Survival, darkness, edge of life
Addiction begins Jan 27, 2012. Homeless with Skye across Zion Ridge, Red Rock, Silver Glen. Birth of Tansy.
Themes: Custody loss, relapse, love endurance
Cycles of relapse and recovery with Calla. Loss of custody of Jude. Ongoing struggle for redemption.
Themes: Faith, return, redefinition
January 11, 2024: spiritual rebirth. June: Tansy reenters Asher’s life. Family begins a messy, beautiful restoration.